Fooled and Stuck. Perhaps Nowhere to Go

What helps is not to fall flat as a nun.

Those who have normal sex urges and get fooled by plots into becoming nuns, could any fate be harder? I would think so.

The nun in this survey represent a devoted guy, too devoted to care a lot for his or her own business, for example. The remedies suit both sexes too.

Suppose you once entered a guru's fellowship, imagining it was a great new dispensation to sweep the world, and you wanted to take part and help it too. Suppose you came to realise that you got tied by verbiage, an oath of loyalty, play on devotion, and much else, to feel socially castrated too, not unlike monks and nuns.

Yes, let us say you have got much disillusioned, and wonder what to do. Repressions mar, you know. The symptom picture of cult serfs or slaves may include one or more of the following:

1. Greatly fooled, taken in. Viola odorata D100 and/or Zanthozylium americana B, D1000.
2. Hates it. Try Ocimum basilicum D12 or 30, and/or Sphagnum D30.
3. Despairing. Try Lilium maculatum D12 and/or Solidago ordorata D12.
4. Clever enough, but . . . Try Hypericum perf D30 and/or Pothos foetida D200.
5. Stuck. Build up to Antimonium tartaricum D200 by and by, from D30 for eight weeks first. And/or Fumaria officinalis. D30, and/or Streptococcin D200.
6. Needs to serve one's own home by and by. Daphne burkwoodii 'Somerset' D200. Try D1000 too after about 8 weeks. And/or Mercurius nitrosus D30 to D200.
7. Must adjust far better to male-female relationships too; not a great cause that makes less of you than to be desired. Fire opal D6.

Unhappy nun, try to read about the single remedies on-line, and note the mental symptoms well if you do. Some of them are told of on-site, and others not - not yet, at any rate. These are my suggestions for Sweet violet and Prickly ash, the two first remedies in the list. If you come across a tree of this kind, try to make a Bach remedy of the flowers (the so-called sun method). You may shake and dilute that again, heading for what is termed higher potencies by and by, if you learn how to. The same goes for Sweet violet. You could buy seeds and plant them too.

The remedies from the top - if I am not mistaken

Viola odorata For example, from my not yet published list of symptoms for Viola odorata, Sweet violet, include: "Stagnated; smashed deep inside; slave of fashion; putting on some mask; referring to predecessors over and over (for example "Guruji", "Mataji" etc); ashamed; others seem more or less openly paranoic; repression of painful memories and wishes, apprehensive. Similar lists may be furnished for each of the chosen remedies.

Zanthozylium americana. Zanthozylium americana is Prickly ash. From my guiding symptoms: A deep need of connectedness; overreacting too; Modest and shy (of a regrettable monastic life-style); many unpleasant feelings of dislike or reluctance and uneasiness; disregard of the rights of others (the human rights of younger nuns, for example); stiff and apathetic; resists apologising to others; apprehensive. - Needs to develop feeling OK without "ji's" and the like, not sacrificing too much for causes or systems, and to go for getting cultured.

Ocimum basilicum is basil. If you try basil in your food, you could get a fine, gentle effect. If I am not mistaken, basil symptoms include: Cowed; depressed; of broken faith; repressed, painful wishes and memories; if structures that brought security are removed, more or less; degenerating into falseness; your real treasures were robbed; etc.

Sphagnum girgensohnii, (White) Bog moss. Relational troubles, bugged. Skin troubles too.

Hypericum perforatum, Klamathweed. Religious hypocricy. Disregard of feelings of others. The Schmuck. Over-justification.

Evolve this: Minding your own business better - gently evolving it. All right enough to count too. Collating well. Learning things from experience.

Pothos foetida, Skunk cabbage. Symptoms: Worrying. Trying to do good without a sane or solid foundation. Stultified-adjusted.

Needs to keep intact one's good boundaries better.

Antimonium tartaricum. Regressions of essential id. Easily bigwig-swayed. Craves rules too much, or too many rules. High-flown desires. Suppressing oneself big-time. Morbidly haughtly at times.

One should try do go for personal integrity.

Fumaria officinalis. Unjustly left out of account. Guilt-ridden underneath. Gruff and sour. Getting at best only poor returns for "marrying Jesus" or someone else.

Try to go for attractive, personal tidiness and advance basic self-schemas (see Hi 474). And stick to the programs that help you.

Streptococcin. Vulnerable, without much respect, and caught between barricades (cloister walls, for example).

Go for regaining decent enough, own heartiness.

Daphne x burwoodii 'Somerset'. A very rotten egg culturally. Dishonesty. Stupidity, etc.

Mercurius nitrosus. Resorting to monastic fashion (ways) for getting accepted. Marked by folly faith. Great self-pity, and great focus on orderliness along with it, but self-respect is far better.

Fire opal. Morbid from much feigning. Idyllisation (defence mechanism). Try, rather, to get something going for the elderly and finish good and decent projects.

For fun?

Did Yogananda set up his own monastic order only to lose interest in it during his last years? His biographer Dasgupta tells he lost interest in the SRF order to a great extent in the years before his passing [Psy]. Satyeswarananda too thinks Yogananda did indeed lose interest in his own monastic order, and brings a hand-written Yogananda letter in Bengali. It contains a Yogananda sentence that allows for this polite translation, "I have committed a great blunder by starting an organization." He adds: ". . . organization is the cause of much disharmony," and "I feel extremely tired of organization . . ." [1]

There are regrets and regrets. A search for alternative remedies to offer some amelioration or "take the top of" acute troubles, might yield:

Yogananda-like regrets:

Mercurius dulcis D 12. -- Also called Calomel, against nausea and vomiting - also cirrhosis! When you feel so sick of the organisation you have started, that it feels like you have been eating feces [1].

Simonite 10 MM - You won't find this one among the most resorted-to homeopathic remedies, and not such a high homeopatic potency of it either.

Xanthium spinosum 5 M. -- If you have plunged into deep water over your head and get hysterical, this might offer some delicate but not immediate help.

Now Yogananda told he had done many things for the fun of it. However, I have not found any specific confirmation that he set up his monastic order for fun, only sweeping statements like "When you are anchored in the Divine Consciousness [y]ou will make fun of your habits [Jse 49]" and, "Don't be like those who, day in and day out, take life so seriously they are afraid even to smile. . . . enjoy life. [Ak 353]."

There is evidence that this guru have left sincere followers despairing and alarmed. Many could need a helping hand.

I have left out many claimed symptoms above. But a little may do to illustrate some monastic phenomena, such as "stagnated, paranoic, resisting apologising, broken faith, degenerating into falseness, troubles (bugged), disregard of own business, morbid as to projects" and so on. I have read into the looming SRF Walrus discussion board of former SRF monastics and have found many other faulty adaptations as well. That board came into being when about one third of the SRF monastics left the SRF premises around 2002 and were not happy either. Some felt bad about learning from the newspaper that their leader had shunned living among them for thirty years without telling them. It is a rather surprising tale and quite a long time. I suppose she was not overjoyed with being on top of SRF, she too, and went for living in a villa with a view instead, without telling the common monks and nuns and lay persons for about thirty years -

As for the third of the SRF monastics who left the premises permanently, their situation changed from being a largely Yogananda-fooled nun or monastic to a quite unprepared ex monastic at large - no longer bulwarked in SRF, or more or less so. Such a transition can be very difficult to the degree that year-long and deep-set attitudes are in the way for proper handling of a life fare that is not just rudimentary. Solid handling skills take time to form or rebuild, and network building can be hard when attempted far too late. That's when all the lovely girls have been married twice, for example. Some tell they also have needed therapy . . .

Be that as it may, and do what you can, the "whole package" of remedies above may work well, much better than any one of them alone, or just a few of them. And what could "work well" mean to those who are stuck? One effect is hopefully and simply "easing the burden".

More or less practical considerations

In countries where the c-scale or x-scale is used in preparing homeopathic remedies, just replace D behind remedy names by c; that is perhaps the best thing you can do then. To save expenses, try to make many remedies yourself, if you dare. Otherwise, buy a little bottle and learn how to make it last for many long years. That could work well.

To legitimate your remedies to bosses or others in charge, find some physical symptoms that tie in with the remedies, if you do not dare to tell the whole truth - Maybe you get braver in time. [Study a few repertories for it. Two are on-line on this site.]

Learn the art of administering homeopathic remedies and similar things yourself. A collection of articles about it is on-site. I think I should recommend it, although it is a bit wordy. It teaches many basics of homeopathy: some well known, others little known yet. To go into the art of homeopathy, take further looks into:

• Full names of remedies and common abbreviations
• Helpful Essence Remedies
• Defence Mechanisms with Selected Homeopathic Remedies<7a>
• OCEAN Preparations